just a BLUR....

to make indistinct....to smudge the boundaries

Notes

The riddles of my life will someday have answers, right?  Maybe I don’t want the answers after all.

I want books.  I am addicted and want more and more of them. That’s all I want these days.  I have grown tired of the people in my day to day life.  They continually bore me and display an insignificant amount of passion to earn my interest.  I  need the books to simply replace the disappointing personalities that surround me.  Actually, I need new friends. Where and how do I find new friends?

My words make me sound like a depressed and unhappy soul, but I have been so happy and proud this month.  Not that I know where my life is headed or how I can create the changes to come, but my outlook has been optimistic and hopeful.  The news today caught me completely off guard, yet unsurprisingly expected and laughable. On one hand, a large weight has been lifted from my shoulders and the hesitation that has paused my decision making has melted away.  On the other hand, I can’t be more humiliated, embarrassed and disappointed.  

I thrive on eliminating drama from my personal life and do not understand why it continually follows me.  GO AWAY.